rain

sleeping in dreams and then waking alone

the wind is blowing through her hair

though it's quiet, and without a cloud

the rain still pours with thunder in her head

my brand new obsession

So I have this new obsession lately... And it's not a bad thing

It just happens to be the greatest musical group in the entire world. Absolutely amazing.

This group is known as She & Him. I just bought both of their albums and they are so amazing!

I think she has the best voice of any female singer I've ever heard! and she is of course known as

Zooey Deschanel! She is my new favorite actress and singer of all time!

tree's n' coffee

people long to say hello

and sometimes forget to say goodbye

so drink some coffee, chew some gum

grow some tree's, go on dates

run some laps, or celebrate

forget of them, whatever it takes

it's always worth it in the end

to forget of hurt

to learn from loss

to remember doubts

and to want to fall in love again

thought of a star

to dream of a star

in the mid morning sky

dark, cold

and a breath with a sigh

but the thought of that star

makes it all go away

fills you up with comfort

and makes the star want to stay

but to know that eventually

it will soon be unseen

to replace it with sunlight

won't come close to the same

but maybe those dreams

will all become real

no matter which you go

the star will always be near

sun in the clouds

Through laughs and cries

Or heartache and pain

It will always be the little things

That will speak

That will be noticed

That will always bring you back to the thoughts of comfort

Through the struggles

There will be a candle

It may not shine so bright

It may not bring perfect warmth

It may burn out with just the breeze of the wind

We may not realize it is there

Until it is gone

The small warmth it brought will disappear

The light it gave will fade to black

But the wind will still remain

And though your skies may look grey

There will always be a sun in the clouds

When you’re needing for warmth, or light

The wind can never blow it away

It will stay through what might seem hard

It can bring light to the candle again

And then will soon come to realize

That it’s the little things that matter

a sight to inspire

RIP Michael Jackson - A great influence to me with his music and person

-Thanks for trying to make the world a better place even through all you had to go through

a story

Once upon the dawn of time, god (lower-case g) was getting busy with creation so he gave Toad a clay jar and said, "Be careful with this, It's got death inside." Pleased as punch and oblivious to the fact that he was about to become god's fall guy on the whole death issue, Toad promised to guard the jar. Then one day Toad met Frog. "Let me hold the jar of death, or what ever you call it", Frog begged. With a nod to Nancy Reagan's pros of wisdom, Toad just said no. But Frog was determined, and after much wining Toad finally gave in. "You can hold it, but only for a second", he said.. In his excitement, Frog began to hop around and juggle the death jar from one foot to the other... Frog was an asshole. "Stop!" Toad cried out, but it was to late. Frog dropped the jar and it shattered to the ground. When it broke open, death got out, and ever since then all living things have to die.

So there you have it, the mystery of death finally revealed. We all die, some of us sooner than later.

-Life sucks, then you die. Then it still sucks
-This is a story from the series Dead Like Me

little jewels

A quote

-It's very tempting to think that the little jewels in our lives will bring it all back.. but they don't

how bout some floyd?

So I went to the Floyd concert. it was so amazing! It was my favorite one so far. Just like my last blog I posted before this. Being on stage in front of thousands of people playing the most relaxing, soulful music is always a dream of mine.
I can't wait to go again next year.

some things

There are somethings that when I see it I think to my self "Man. I really wish I could be good at that"
I'd have to say dancing is one of the biggest ones. Maybe I will take dance lessons. Hopefully It's not too late.. I like to think it's not too late to do anything.
It all started with So You Think You Can Dance season 4 when I saw Chelsie Hightower dance. So fluent, and flawless. So I've been into dancing since then. And the thing that brought up the whole dancing thing now is when I watched the movie Dirty Dancing. Great movie! I highly recommend it.

broken dreams

the dark cold nights

of broken dreams

the things you thought that mattered

trying to see

or never at all

that your broken dreams

could be lingering on forever

i know

Yes, I know my blog is quite boring. Not very interesting I guess. I'm always blank so I never know what to write these days.

just a couple words

I sometimes wish I could go back in time to make a few changes, to say just a couple words, to fix the mistakes that took me until now to realize. But not matter how much I beg, no matter how much I could ever wish this was all just a dream. I can't make up for the things I should of done. So maybe it's better to just wonder how things could of been, rather than being disappointed on the fact that it can't change.

breath of a scent

the longest touch

the sightless view

the tasteless love

of distorted words

lingers on forever

or holds a bullet close

the sound of a shot

will leave it all in tears

thinking wrong over right

blaming guilt over truth

having fear over feeling

only to die over and over again

-pretty much all my poetry i like to use a lot of metaphores and exadurated thought. So each one can be broken down in a different meaning depending on person

pink floyd

So Australian Pink Floyd is coming to Utah on October 9th.. I'm way excited! I saw them the past 2 years and they are just amazing.

The month of October will be a good month...

who knew?

So I saw the movie Inception the other day.

For one. that was probably one of the best movies I've ever seen. I highly recommend it.

Before seeing it I had never seen a trailer for it. I've only heard of it here and there, and when I saw it. It just happens to be that one of my favorite actresses ever, Ellen Page is in it! who knew?

I'd marry her if I could. Along with Kate Beckinsale.

it kinda sucks

- instead of thinking back at what went wrong, instead look up to see how you can improve your self. The past already happened and can not be changed... I try to keep my head up as much as possible, but sometimes life gets to ya. And it kinda sucks.

good, eh?

So my favorite drink! (Soda wise)

I'm normally not a fan of soda but this one is an exception

Just get half pink lemonade, half mountain dew, with 1 shot of cherry and 2 shots of lime... mmm mmm delicious!

-Sounds good, eh?

the beauty

the things in our lives that we dream of
waking back up to the sun
seeing the truth with a blink of an eye
you know when your day has begun
it seems too much to remember
every song, every lyric, and sound
with love we can try
to fill our emerald skies
keep us safe and warm and can never be found
the sparkling waves from sapphire stars
lights shining from the blueberry moon
it never grows cold, it never dies down
the night is to hold, with the world spinning round
the whispering words would all mean the world
and the clocks would all sing a song
wth a tear or a sigh
amethyst in the eyes
of the ones holding close, until the end of time

and then back again

Bleh... Just a blank mind today

Not feeling too hot right now...

-It's just one of those days...

i can't decide

So I posted about who I think is the best looking Disney Princess (If they were real)

But now I can't decide which is the best Disney song out there...

to say goodbye

to love, to feel

to sing and dance

to fall in love

or to love again

to think, to write

to give or take

from those to know

to the ones who fake

to scream or jump

to fall asleep

to work all day

for yours to feed

to wonder why

and never try

to stand again

to only cry

there's love and hate

there's much to take

there's a lot to learn

from just one mistake

so when the flower dies

and the color is gone

take a minutes worth time

to watch it bloom

to grow, to crawl

to shiver and shake

give to one a blanket to keep

in return that you'll stay warm

to see, to die

to mourn, or sigh

there's a world ahead

in a dark rainbow sky

there are plenty of words, or songs, or rhymes

and a million ways that you could say goodbye

but for all our dreams we only have one chance

to let the colors rise

to let the words flow through

to let the love in you

become a part of the world, to let easier said goodnight

what would i do?

So a few days ago I purchased the best thing ever. You could say I've become obsessed. But It's so fun I can't help myself.

I am talking of course about Starcraft 2.. It's way super fun and everyone should play it.

-now time to go play some more starcraft

not an average day

So I start my day here at one man band to drink a couple cups of coffee (Best coffee in the world! only one dollar for all you can drink) I had about 3 cups like usual and just chatted with the person working there that night. Who is a very cool guy.

After my coffee I decided that I need to go shopping for new clothes...

So I went to Kohl's and spent about 2 and a half hours shopping, trying on all sorts of pants and shirts and all this stuff and blah blah blah. And at the end just got these 2 shirts. I never realized how hard shopping can be until today... And it's kind of fun, I can't wait to go shopping next time.

It's not my usual day but I guess it was pretty fun.

- sometimes a day by your self can be relaxing, I recommend it. And yes, those pics were taken in the dressing room haha.

everything

The inspiring words of Pink Floyd

All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy
Beg, borrow, or steal
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight
All that is now
All that is gone
All that's to come
And everything under the sun is in tune
But the sun is eclipsed by the moon

 

-there is no dark side of the moon really. matter of fact it's all dark

right?

hmm... good ol' holidays right? - I don't know.. not really, maybe next holiday...

- then again, many people probably don't consider the 24th of July to be a holiday..

anything

Before writing this one I was stumped, I couldn't think of a thing but for some reason I was still in a deep mood to write. So I asked a friend "Hey, what should I write about?" and in response got "I don't know, anything..." And I decided that is a great idea! so I wrote this one titled "anything"

If the roses grew in rainbow
and the grass would grow in blue
I would still not think of anything
unless anything was you

you are all I really think about
I don’t know how to say
Thoughts of you make it hard to write
Because you take my breath away

If each simple thought I wrote to you
Could take your breath away
Then I would write the world for you
And I would write it every day

- I know almost all of my stuff might relate to "love" in some matter, but for the most part that's all that i can write

maybe that's why..?

"who is the best looking disney princess ever?" - someone might ask..

- Though I must say Jasmine is a close call. I would definitely have to say Arial from the little mermaid...

If all the Disney princess's were real life people then I'd probably go crazy over her... Ff she wasn't a fish of course, haha. I mean I do have a thing for red heads and maybe that's why..? I don't know, but who cares!

-yes, I realize these are cartoons
- no I am not sexually attracted to them

yes, another one..

I write a lot about love and I can't say I've ever been in love. So I like to think of it as I write these so maybe one day there will be someone in my life that will put more meaning in them...

-Paint-
I’d never paint my windows where there’s no one else to see
I’d never paint my front door where there’s nowhere left to be
I’d never paint my fingers while the touch I have’s so real
I’d never paint my eyes shut, or paint my mouth over with steel

I would never paint the sun outside so the flowers grow in cold
I’d never paint the thoughts inside; I’d never leave it all untold
I would never paint the way you look, I would never paint your hair
I’d never paint the way it smells, or leave you thinking in despair

I’d never paint the life I have; I’d never paint all over yours
I would never paint on the clouds above; I’d never paint all on the floors
I’d never wait until you turn around and paint on you with black
Then give to you a silver crown and say I love you back

Some people paint the night time, some people paint the day
Some people watch the sunrise; others watch it fade away
Some people paint them selves because they don't know who they are

If I had the chance to paint on you, I’d paint you just the way you are

- it's kind of long but if you read it, I hope you like it

a touch to inspire

some inspirations of mine, who help build me into the person I am today. Not in a fake matter.. hence inspiration ..

-Lady Gaga-

"Love is like a brick. You can build a house, or you can sink a dead body"

lady gaga to me is a big influence because she uses her differentiality as a way to express her music. I heard her say in an interview at one time  
"The whole point in what I do, I want to create a space for my fans where they can feel free, and they can celebrate. Because I didn't fit-in in high school and I felt like a freak. So I like to create this atmosphere for my fans where they feel like they have a Freak In Me to hang out with"

-And not only that, but when I listen to her live performances the soul she brings into her piano when she plays and into the microphone when she sings is amazing. You can tell that she really loves her fans... In different ways she inspires me to help become who I am today.

-Jon Bon Jovi-

"Don't get too comfortable with who you are at any given time - you may miss the opportunity to become who you want to be"

Jon Bon Jovi is a huge influence on the way I think about life and how to view it. He inspires the way I write my songs, and my poems. And an even bigger influence on how I try to show my physical appearance.. But the main thing that inspires me are the lyrics in his songs. They are so unique to where anyone can relate to any one of his songs to a past story in their life or even a fantasy in their head. And the way he sings the song is with so much heart.. If I could choose to be as good as any one singer, it would be Jon Bon Jovi.

-David Gilmour, and Pink Floyd-

"There is no dark side of the moon really. Matter of fact it's all dark"

Now David Gilmour all around; along with Pink Floyd, are probably my biggest all time influences. The lyrics Pink Floyd has in their songs are very deep and meaningful. and David Gilmour's guitar playing is like no other. When he plays you can feel the songs and the solo's. To a lot of people Pink Floyd is just noise but to me they are a huge inspiration mainly on the way I play instruments and the way I put metaphorical speaking into a lot of things that I write. If someone were to ask me my all time favorite band it would be Pink Floyd without a doubt.

- r.i.p richard wright (1943 - 2008) your music will live on.

forever dream

as the longest days have passed
the midnight turns the hour
the burning heart which froze the mind
still inside would light the fire

a mouth closed tight, too scared to move
try instead to smell the flowers
wonders fly and secure the thoughts
but will sometimes fail to care

feel some empty hands or a lonely hold
of the stars that fill the nights
or jump off the world and take a chance

toward a forever dream, or a days worth fall

-my personal favorite